Tuesday, January 30, 2007 @6:30 PM
So Far Away
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What seemed so flanking, has become dreadfully distant, drifting further and further away from me. Spectating them at the side under intense scrutiny, how I wished I could join them in trouncing the forlorn opponents, shooting them down. Well, there are a whole lot of things in this world that people want to have but it's so far away that it will not seem viable, virtually impossible, drowning their spirits in the mendacity and the scandals of our worst adversary in our lives, our LIFE. Each and every one of us in the society view life in different perspectives, customarily based on that particular "good" or "bad" day, and this makes our opinions inapplicable.
Although, I feel exceedingly proud of myself being in the main twelve, but I got the impression that I got into that position by sheer chance and luck. I most certainly think that I could be much better at the sport, if I had not progressed on the trip to somewhere, ditching practice, then this would all be easier. But it would look as if I 'm finding an excuse why I suddenly faired so devastatingly in the sport when I came back from the getaway to somewhere. Maybe its all in the head ( like I said before ), but either way, all would be lost at the end of the day as nothing that I do could revolutionize the outcome of this situation.
Carrying on with what progressed today, we were arranged to deal with CHUENG CHENG HIGH, and we won, trying to show the least of arrogance. Some did, of course, but I feel no glory, no euphoria, because I did not really contribute to their inevitable sucess, besides uplifting and cheering them on at the side. I really wanted to feel the intense ecstasy and the sweat again when we would win, like in the VAS-UNDER 13 tournament, when we were still in two secluded teams, and I feel as if I had played much better at that point of time. Well, say no more... feeling worse by the minute...
We are orchestrated to face PASIR RIS SEC tommorrow, we should more or less be in our top-form, obliterating any form of antagonists, really have our hopes on winning this next match.
Some dreams are like bubbles, when we try to reach out for them, they burst at the most salient time, leaving us with soapy hands to wash...
all thought by me, no doubts, believelionel...