Wednesday, January 03, 2007 @6:59 PM
Standing there, waiting for you to come home...Well, it was quite a while since I updated this good-for-nothing-piece-of-junk blog. Just want to voice out that I'm just waiting for my old and other self to come home...If I were to ask someone who has been a close friend to me since primary days if I had changed any one bit since then, a nod is what I would fre*king get. I certainly feel that I, from a energetic, lively, talkative and somewhat humorous person, have changed into a dead and decomposing idiot. If I were to ask someone who just knew me in secondary school, that person would definitely contradict with what I had just said and would reply with a " humorous peron? you? c'mon, maybe you could try and make my toes laugh first! ", kind of reply. I have made very close and trustworthy friends in my primary school and I think this was one of the reasons why I was able to open up to them, making them laugh and making them laugh again, and again. But thus far, some of the people I have met in this secondary school are no where near them them and I think this has caused me to sort of close up, shielding myself from what seemed the outside world of secondary school life. I guess that I'm just not comfortable with them around yet. But not speaking up most of the time I think, has bloody caused my humor and talkative meter to hit rock bottom and with friends that I'm not really keen on wanting to know more about them, I've just managed to touch the core...There are maybe one or two people that I have met who just doubt me in everything I bloody do. And this su*ks, big time. Well, some of my close friends that I have made in primary school have changed too, and I hope for the better. But in my case, I really hope all is not lost and I would really find just one good friend who can turn the tables around for the better and show me there is not just only the downside on this...Getting it off my chest...Anyway, just came back for my trip to HONG KONG which was a tour from CHAN BROTHERS, a tour agent company. There were like a total of 17 people who came from SINGAPORE to enjoy their well-planned holiday in HONG KONG. I met really fun people in the tour and I guess I quite did open up to them, and it really brought back good memories from somewhere. There I met Rainer, a friend of the same age from GREENVALE SECONDARY and it was really, really fun getting to know him. And we would crack any d*mn joke that we would think of... But really, most of them in the tour group were made up of people in their 17s and 18s and it was really fun talking to people that are slightly more mature than the people that I always exchange verbal remarks with in school. There were altogether 5 families in the tour including mine, made up of a boy who experiences solitude all the bloody time. There were three families of three and two families of four in the whole tour. There was a family that was made up of what seemed three sisters which had one of them who didn't look like the others and a mother. Both were aged 17 except for the one who was 18. But I later found out that one of them who was 17 was not a sister, but a neighbour studying at the same place and year as the other two, who looked very different from the other two. She looked and behaved really cute by the way, REALLY cute. Not as in a childish cute, but in a like-matured-and-gentle-kind-of-cute cute. I found out that if one could just open one's mouth, the outcome of everything would change, and again I hope for the better. And I hope I would know more about her...and that's what msn is for, byelionel...