Tuesday, January 09, 2007 @6:39 PM
Tied to the ground. Hands, feet, Everything...Took a step, fell, and never to rise again.Been feeling very down but not negative yet during the past few days of bloody school. Maybe its psychological or in the mind or something but I seriously have no fre*king idea. This is what makes me so afraid, afraid to do anything.Even Ms Teo said something about me having a mental block and saying that there is no such a thing call "recovering" your skills or anything and I definetely believe and trust what she is saying. The main reason being because I think that she is wise and of course she's an elder to me and so I guess she has A LOT of experience with this sort of thing. With experience, comes wisdom. Hopefully...But even with Ms Teo saying it, I honestly have a pinch of doubt in my "skills" ( whatever you people call them ) and whatsoever. Its was like when a vile hurricane came and swept virtually anything in its path away and never left. But when it did, I was just lying there, asking GOD for guidance...This unresolved issue has been going for like very long and I hope that I myself could come to a conclusion and be a better friend, a better student, a better son and of course a better sportsman.GOD, I believe that your light will shine most heavenly when all else fades... Waiting on you, GOD...GOD, in need of your help and guidance,lionel...